Becuase you still make my day...

Zoinks

Bounce
Bouunce
Bouuunce

Ticktickclick

...

Boom!

Haha, I have no idea what was about. I do seem to be in a better mood now though... hm... Oh, well. Anyways, I've been kind of depressed lately. I don't even know why ether, maybe it's just that time of the month. My life is so confusing though, at least it seems that way. I know I have it better than most people. It's hard to compare myself to them though, because I've never been in their shoes, and I can't compare my pain to theirs. I just feel like the world is against me, like nothing ever goes right. Every little thing seems so hard now. I''m suddenly afraid of going to high school, scared it will be to hard for me and I'll fail out or something. I've always had good grades, so I have no reason to think this. I'm still so afraid of change.

The hallucinations have gotten worse also. I hear things sometimes, and see things out of the corner of my eyes. Christopher seems to have faded away into the back of my mind somewhere, almost like he's sleeping there. With him less active I've fallen back into my last crushes arms again, well not literally, but I really like him. I guess I probably never got over him. It's not as bad though. I think it's a better kind of love, ya know? I defiantly don't feel as sick about it anymore.

I don't feel as strong of an attraction to her anymore, not like I use to. I think not having Christopher being so strongly present is helping a lot. I mean I do still like her as more than a friend, but not enough for me to really want to tell her. For now I'm just going to sit back and see what happens there.

So yup, that's my life right now.

Blib to yah later.